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The Cool Girl

In the fall of 2011, I went out to dinner with my boyfriend at the time for one of his friend’s birthday. This is how I was introduced: she’s like a dude, but hot, as we sat down at a table full of his male friends. I don’t remember how I responded to that, I probably didn’t respond at all. He wasn’t wrong, but it seems my reaction to this statement nearly seven years later has become altered. When I think back on relationships past I wonder, how had I become so indoctrinated with The Cool Girl ideology I wouldn’t allow myself to be heard above a whisper?
I’ve always been one of the guys, perhaps a symptom of growing up with mostly boys in my neighborhood friend group. When I was young, I wore Superman pajamas and would tie a blanket around my neck running around the house pretending I could fly. One of my favorite shows was Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles. There’s a story that’s often been told in my family that when I was maybe three or four years old I took off all my clothes in the gr…