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lipstick and cigarettes

I was listening to Waylon Jennings and remembered I left my favorite lipstick at his house.
When I pulled up to his house, he was sitting on the porch smoking a cigarette. I could tell he hadn’t slept in days.
“You’re not a smoker,” I said.
He stared at me and shrugged his shoulders.
“I bought a pack when you told me you needed space.”
Two weeks ago.
His neighbors were outside drinking cheap beer talking about video games.
After the uncomfortable silence, we walked inside his apartment. His bright red couch was staring at me cold and firm.
“I was going to throw it away,” he said.
I had to remember where I was. “Huh?”
“Your lipstick.” Flat. Stern. Heartbroken.
I felt my hand do that thing. I reached for the side of my head and combed my hair through my fingers.
“I’m glad you didn’t,” I said. “It’s my favorite color. They don’t make it anymore.”
He walked upstairs to get my lipstick. I waited in the apartment where I had recently broken up with someone for the first time in 27 years.

July 7, 2013

I am sitting on the porch, barefoot and drinking red wine. The faint sounds of a Michael Jackson cover are haunting the neighborhood. I have been reading a Murakami novel for an hour and a half, but now my mind is flushed from the wine.
I keep trying to remember last night and the way he said, “You know what I mean?” after every thought. We talked about rock and roll bands and produce. I take note that he is thirty years old and never had a cup of coffee.
We were sitting at a table in the middle of a dive bar on a Saturday night. My eyes were gravitating towards the butts that kept coming within less than a foot of my face.
“You don’t like Pink Floyd?” he asked.
“I went through a phase in college,” I responded. “They helped me write a couple short stories.”
The awkward silence is trampled by an acquaintance of mine who buys us a round of drinks.
He asks where I see myself in five years, and my only response is “thirty-three.”
He wants to talk about his high definition Blu-Ray telev…